This might just be a brain dump. It’s 5:52am and I’m feeling restless. My nanny just called out sick for the day. I happen to have a huge day on my plate. Chad works from home and Landon’s in school all day, so it makes today one of the worst to have that happen. Of course… I’ve actually been expecting it. Chad said it’s fine and that I need to do what I need to do, but my instinct after the last few months is not necessarily to trust that and I cringe slightly thinking it’s going to come back and bite me. Not for any of his faults, just that something is going to happen to make me regret choosing to work today.
All that is a bit of a side note. They are what they are… I’m going to make today as good as possible and show my team what it’s like to be a working mom, slaying it, while dying inside. Knowing I should do more at home, but trying to see how a work-life balance/blend actually works during a pandemic. Hint: it doesn’t.
My leg has been up and down for recovery. I finished 80 Day Obsession in 183 days. Tried to start a new program, Barre Blend and though the exercises were probably what I needed – I hated them and the woman instructing the workouts. So I switched to 21 Day Fix and that’s definitely more my speed. I might continue to use Barre Blend as a supplement, but it’s not enough for me.
I started running a bit with mixed results. Some days it feels great, some days I regret it. Overall, my Apple Watch has succeeded in doing what I hoped: keeping me motivated and focused on continuing to move throughout the day and hit various goals that aren’t necessarily running centric. I missed a couple days in September, but have been nailing October and it’s really funny to see my family look at me like I’m nuts when I’m doing random exercises before I head to bed to try and make up the remaining of my calorie goal haha! My biggest complaint is that it needs to be charged every day. So, I’m going camping this weekend and I’m unsure of what the “power” situation looks like… I guess we’ll see what happens in situations like that.
Speaking of Apple Watch, my October goal is to walk or run at least 186 miles, averaging 6 miles a day. I’ve noticed several times that instead of sitting down and reading, I’ve opted to get a walk in. I do want to get that badge, so I feel like I have to honker down and commit to making sure I hit that mileage plus a little extra each day; however, I don’t want it to result in additional injuries by upping my mileage so much. Most of the miles have been dog walks, and Barley needs it! Hopefully that doesn’t come back to bite me either.
Also, speaking of reading, I’m definitely slacking on that front. At the start of this blog entry, I’m eight days into the month and haven’t finished a book! I’m hoping that I can catch up a bit on my camping trip, (it did!) and when Chad’s gone helping his brother and sister in law move, I can really hammer a few books down. My TBR list just keeps growing! (And growing! and growing!!!) I’m currently reading Before We Were Yours, basically about rich people stealing poor people’s babies in the late 20’s and 30’s and ancestors finding out about it 50, 60 years later. Creepy! Reminds me of the 60’s scoop in Canada with Indigenous families. I’m also listening to the Book of Joy on Audible. I had started it like a year or so ago but started over again recently and I’m finding a lot of it to be relevant right now. It’s about the Dalai Lama and Archbishop Desmond Tutu coming together to talk about life, the meaning of joy, the difference between joy and happiness, and what suffering means in life. Very relevant. The narrators are fantastic, and the only thing I’m missing is the actual sound of Archbishop Desmond Tutu’s laughter because that’s a truly heavenly sound! Here, do yourself a favor… Click here, I’ll wait!
So between reading goals, Apple Watch goals, rehabbing my bum leg (still), and everything else – I kind of feel like I’m in a limbo. I’ve started and stopped a few BOD programs, but nothing has really stuck. I reached out to a local Chiropractor to get help and PT with my leg, but it was SERIOUSLY the wrong fit, and single-handedly the most awkward meeting I’ve ever had. I did find a new therapist and we have our first session together next week. I can already tell that’s going to be a great relationship – a lot of synergy on the intake call already.
Anyway, again – probably just a brain dump. Needed to get something out there and make room for something else.